Doors. Mallorca, 2023.

A person is not just a complicated and unique live organism, it is a mega universe with an exceptional set of talents, knowledge, skills, encrypted symbols, and signs. A person is like a book, every time you read it and dive deeper into the essence, you can see something new, discover an unknown truth and new rare gifts. Having read "The Metamorphoses" by Franz Kafka during two evenings in Mallorca, I was impressed. I discussed with my sister her perception of this novel, and read criticism from various sources. The process of rejection has been with me all my life, and these painful rejections constantly push me into the process of my reincarnation and transformation through pain and suffering.

"The Metamorphoses" again brought me back to the idea of ​​"doors", which I constantly pay attention to, which I photograph, which I am inspired by, and which I obsessively search for everywhere. No matter which city or country I visit, I constantly subconsciously look for beautiful doors and make a photo of them. This process cannot be stopped, paused, or skipped, sometimes I no longer understand whether I am looking for the door, or whether the door finds me on its own and forces me to stop near it and gaze fascinated. I can stand for a long time near a beautiful door and admire it, I can take hundreds of pictures with a smile on my face, and I can pose on their background, and passers-by, stopping, ask what I am doing and whether there is something sacred about these doors that caught my eye. I never thought about this question and suddenly Kafka's "The Metamorphoses" in Mallorca forced me opened the Internet and googled the symbolism of doors.

The door is not only an element of living space but also a symbol of transition from one state to another; that is, it symbolizes metamorphoses. Doors are always the beginning of something new or the end of something old. It is, on the one hand, something familiar and well-known, and on the other, mystical and unknown. The door is the border between light and darkness, life and death. The door is always about duality and choice at every moment, it is a kind of transition through a portal.

After finding this information, I realized how strong was my thirst for finding answers to questions, a transition to a new state and new projects, a desire to go to the unknown through fears and darkness; and now, in the last four years, the "door" has become a kind of portal of transition from the old to the new, from the darkness to the light, from fears to freedom. The desire to get out of the state in which I found myself, the ardent desire to change myself and my life poured out even from my subconscious, which I could not control. Standing nearby different doors, I seemed to feel nirvana, full of peace, a rush of strength and creative energy that filled my body, mind, and soul. I always wanted to open the door and see what was behind it.... And when I couldn't do it for reasons of privacy (if it is someone's private residence), I imagined what and how it could be there, not just imagining it with my brain, but imagining it with all my feelings.... It inspired and motivated me. Even though I am afraid of changes (this is how our human brain is arranged) I constantly look for them and implement them in my life, and sometimes life gives me a painful pendulum, if I have stopped for a long time and have already sunk into a comfortable, well-known, but smelly swamp, such a pendulum forces me to change myself and my life.

On my way to the bus in Palma, I came across a charming little street with a big beautiful cathedral and of course a grand front door. And again the anticipation and trepidation before the portal into the unknown. In the literal sense, I ran into the cathedral and, taking one more step, froze... A spacious hall with columns, giant windows decorated with patterns benches on two sides and a grand installation of light that took up almost the entire floor. I couldn't resist and said:

- WOW!

My "WOW" echoed and I realized that I had broken the silence of ancient times. I automatically covered my mouth with my hands so as not to say anything else, but thoughts and images echoed in my head, and I was already mentally organizing the event in this hall, in this cathedral.

I have been organizing events since childhood, wherever I am, I constantly have millions of ideas on how to make "WOW" again, something new, inspiring, and very creative. I rejoiced like a child, for the first time in these almost four years of my spiritual journey and so-called metamorphosis, I came back and realized that I and beautiful inspiring events are inseparable, this is my essence, this is one of my talents and gifts and it again reborn.... And I know that one day I will return to the same place, to the same cathedral and organize an amazing event, as always in my style, with love, aesthetics, and beauty in every detail.

December 15, 2023.